I'm getting really sick, and really tired of this darn world. Really, really.
Typical city life, people constantly glaring at each other in cars and pointing their middle fingers. I mean, what the hell. At this point, I really am angry and I want to swear, but be grateful I stopped myself. Anyway, I really can't stand people not trusting each other. It makes me feel rather annoyed, much to my surprise.
My dad's a perfect example. That's what he does everytime he's driving. Every single time I'm in his car, there will never be a time where he did not glare at one car. I would sink back in the seat and wonder when he will suddenly stop the car in the middle of a journey, unbuckle his seat belt and run to the driver's car, trying to use his fists to break the windows and beat the poor guy up.
"Ted," he had told me. "No one can ever be trusted here. Everyone hungers, everyone has their head in glory and money, time and their own benefits. And they would do ANYTHING to get to it. Therefore, trust is out of the question."
So, I thought. That's how sick you people are. You would spit at the weak, laugh with the strong, steal and cheat, all for yourselves, or for your own family. You will glare at those strangers wasting your time, you will risk your FACE for your TIME. You would give in to peer pressure, team up and have so much fun till you lost your mind, and follow what your REAL heart tells you to do; listen to the world. Follow the world.
Well, let me give you this little advice for free.
HEY, DARK PEOPLE. IF YOU'RE ACTING LIKE THE WORLD, YOU'RE TOO WEAK TO HANDLE YOURSELF.
That's what I hate about humans, besides their emotions.
Hatred, no sense of trust between our own kind. You know what? You're just puppets of your own kind, you're just puppets of Nature. What Nature tells you to do, you do it. And don't tell me that I said this because I hate Nature. Nope, that's not it.
You just don't know everything has a dark side.
You're so preoccupied with time, and work you began to judge things. You judge city life to suck badly, you judge Nature to be good. You judge love to be twisted, you judge hate to be bad. Worst of all, you say, "There is a darker side of human nature."
This is the most ironic sentence I heard. A person I once knew, he had said, "We could never trust each other, because we all have a darker side of human nature."
Then, I ask you, how about you try and change yourself?
How about you stop wasting your precious little 'time' here talking about shet like this and start to trust someone for once?
Why don't you stop your knowledge of that 'darker human nature' shit and just smile at those dull looking faces of your people? Why don't you brighten them up for once? Why must everything about you? Why can't you just drop that GREAT ambition of yours you were so chasing and look at the surroundings around you? Don't they seem dark enough?
Why don't you stop CRYING and make those CRYING around you SMILE? Why must you blend in to the crowd? Why must you give in to those emotions, those emotions are just causing you pain! That's like jabbing excalibur into your chest, that lands you in Hell when you're supposed to be in Heaven! Stop being so emotional, take a deep breath, stop trying to find a reason, for god's sake, and at least SMILE!
That's why I hate my past self so much, for I never tried to do that But now, at least, at least I can smile at those random people I never met before. At least that makes them pretty darn happy, even though my friend over there is staring at me like there's no tomorrow, as if asking me why I smiled so much.
That's why War is considered Peace too. A teacher of mine told us, when there was peace, everyone's hearts become dark, and there was no trust amongst each other. War, even though it was externally horrible to you, it reunites you people and you trust each other. And you can see, just how many wonders trust itself can do.
Screw your definition of discrimination and lack of trust in your dictionary.
